and me too, I have a dream. Too bad, I don't have a song to sing.
When I was 5, I told my teacher I want to be a TEACHER. I said I want to be like her because she's so kind and friendly. And the most important thing was, she got one thing called 'patient' that I don't have. Thinking the job will give a me good time because I love kids, I started to treat my sister like a student and I'm the teacher [fyi, my poor sis is only 1 when I was 5]. Always offer to teach and later I found out that I'm not that piece of ingredient. I start to feel impatient and I start to yell at her. There it end my little dream when I was 7.
Remebering that every year in primary school, we have to fill up a booklet which have three column. Teachers want to know 3 of our ambitions. Took out the booklet lately and I found out that I want to become a DOCTOR. It was my second ambition and it lasted until I'm in standard 4. And this is funny... I remembered when I was in standard 1, we need to have some injection and I'm the kid with needle phobia [until now I'm still having it]. The nurse was so patient and caring. They convinced me to inject and then I started to like that job. I always thought they're all doctors until one day my friend said they're NURSE. I mistaken a nurse as a doctor for 3 years.
Then one day, I was attending my English class in standard 4, my teacher ask us one by one what's our ambition and mine was to be a 'CLERK'. Damn WTF right? It's a freaking shamefull experience that's why I always remember about that. I was the last person to answer her and everyone's ambition was all the white collar jobs except me. I got pissed by the teacher because she said 'Why you want to become a clerk? A clerk have low salary and they only do typing.' I got offended because my mum was a clerk that time and I want to follow my mum's foot steps. But, that's not the only reason I got pissed. All my classmate laugh at me for a few weeks because of that. I don't deserve all those laughter just because I want to be a clerk. And that made me thinking do they think they're so good to became one of the professional? But reality told me they're not. They got screwed like me as the education level increase and only my little dream can be achieve in reality but their's can't.
When I was in stanrdard 5 and 6, I changed my mind again. I want to become a singer because I fell in love with singing. The dream was terminated because I got awful voice. zzz
Things goes too fast and I'm already 13. I wanted to be an artist. Not the singing and acting type, but the drawing and painting type. I got an art teacher that was said cruel and strict and she loves my piece of arts! Felt the saticfaction of being praised and I start to pay most of my attention in art class. Ending up I screwed most of my other results. I'm lucky because my parents didn't screw me that time and I use to enjoy this dream the most. Being a(n) FASHION/INTERIOR DESIGNER....
I enter form 4 then. My school don't allow me to enter accounting class because it was already full. I was forced to enter science class for 2 holy years to study Bio, Chem and Phy. My result swim in Bio class and Chem class when I was in form 4 and that's the first time I know feeling of failing. I told myself this can't be continue so I decided to drop Bio but taking up Business Study and Accounting. I want to follow my dad's foot step this time. The dream being a businesswoman is like the illustration I have in my first stage of sleep. Easily wake up by the surrounding and then the same thing keep repeating. I was struggling between Fashion/Interior design and business until I done with my SPM. Graduated with a sad results that became one of the tragedy in my life.
Time flies and I'm now a 19 years old lady. I choose my path to become a BUSINESSWOMAN following my dad's foot step. All I did is just wake up from the non-realistic dream and chase them in my real life. Now, I'm already halfway going through it. Going through the process to achieve my great dream, a realistic job, an interest of mine, the BUSINESSWOMAN... And I told myself, the dream I'm having will be my reality one day.
signing off,
I have a dream, and my dream was my reality. =D
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