Standing Firm?

What you do when you face obstacles?
Seriously, I don't know the way to react.
What I can do is just stay in the dark, hold my body firm tight and let my tears slip off.

I don't know it was me that made my life miserable, or it was you.
I don't think I deserve all this shit for being a soft heart-ed person.
You call me selfish, you call me ignorant, you call me cold heart-ed...
Beforehand, why don't you think what made me this?
You think you need to be care, you need to be dote on, you need to be the little princess in the house,
but what makes you think that I don't?
It's not that I was selfish, but I have nothing to give;
It's not that I was ignorant, but I was ignored;
and not that I'm cold heart-ed, but I've never given warm.
I'm really tired trying so hard to compromise,
why am I not being understand for having a little rumble to reduce my grieve,
while you are forgave after blowing one's top anytime you want?

signing off,
I was told to stand firm, don't sway.
But please let me know, how long a person can actually stand.
Because I'm really exhausted and felt like falling in the next millisecond.