time flies

Next semester will be my last semester. As I mentioned, time flies. How can a 4 years courses ending in a blink of eyes?

When I first visit the college, it was the time I wanted so much to escape form six. I have no choice but to go anywhere I can, with an affordable price. I'm not that poor that I couldn't afford school fees, but I promised my dad to enter form six, to save cost. Still, I gave him a hit unprepared, a 4 years burden. I wanted to say sorry and thank you but I'm glad I did it or I'll definitely regret for the rest of my life.

With excitement, I entered the college with the joy of escaping the world 2nd tough exam and that I could stay together with one of my best friends. I think the joy doesn't last long, because she had got a boyfriend, very soon after we entered the college. With lots of bad impressions and comments, I try to persuade you not to stay in that relationship because I know that you're innocent. I don't know him, and I thought I was suppose to protect my friends, but I'm definitely wrong. My friend over 5 years left me for a guy she knew for a few months. What a mock... I know you wanted to be in the 2 men world, so there you go. I cried my lungs out, stand up firm again, and I have more best and close friends now. I'm glad that you did it, because without all these I wouldn't have grown, wouldn't have know how to let go, wouldn't have know to care less, and wouldn't have all my friends today. Thank you for all the experiences, now I know the feeling of being dumped even without a boyfriend. Not to be sarcastic, but this definitely take me a step advance in my life. Still, I still don't like how you think you're sacrificing for me when you guys broke up after months. We're all cleared when you broke up, nothing to be relate together between me and you. Still, we're friend but not that close anymore.

So there the story continues, I'm now alliance with other friends, and I'm glad that I have them in my life. Without them, I don't know what am I today. They're people who helped me overcome obstacles, share my happiness and sadness, and see me without my mask. But, not thoroughly hahaha. I can't imagine what will my life like if I'm not associated with them, what is friends, what is studies, what is hanging out, what is.... Seriously, I know nothing. I want to thank them sincerely, without you guys, I'm really nothing. Thank you so much for being part of my life! In fact, I tried to imagine my life without all of you, but I can't. I just hope that you guys will not be only part of my life, but the rest of my life. *loves x infinity*

Of course, I have more people to thank, like everyone I knew in the college. Even though we're not as close (even after so many vacation trips together FML I have bad human relations I think), or just 'Hi-Bye' friends, I still want to thank you for being a part of my life. You guys are still here, in my heart, just that we don't often see each other much. Thank you for giving so much sweet memories, Genting, Penang, PD, etc, just many loves. And thanks to those passerby, those who comes and leaves, for making my life meaningful. A movie can't complete with only the lead actor acting in it.

I have so much more to write, but I don't know where to start. Guess I'll just keep them in my heart. I just want to tell everyone outside who knew me, and whom I knew, I still love you guys out there even though I didn't show it. Not expressing doesn't meant don't right? I looks cool but I'm not, just iceberg at the outside but volcano in the inside okay. Every time I see you sad I wanted to comfort you and hug you tight but my body just don't follow instruction I'm so sorry. So if you're sad and need hugs just come to me and hug me I'll definitely hug you back tight tight till you can't breath.

p/s: thinking I'm very 'siu hei' is it? After so long still remember that incident. Tell you what, you won't forget how your boyfriend/girlfriend dumped you for the rest of your life, and it's applicable in my case just that she's not my boy. And hor, a boy don't value that much to me but a friend close like sister will. A wound that turned into a scar is forever with you. If I'm 'siu hei' I won't even look at her lor.

signing off,
I cried when I thought of leaving you guys. Don't always call me cold blooded or cruel okay. I very sentimental one. *loves*