# ??

I have been thinking so much lately. Yes, I didn't manage to hand in my work on time but I spent so much time to think. You ask 'Why?' and what I can say is only I can't control it to happened. It sounds so wacky it's like someone out there is controlling them but not me, the owner! I couldn't find evidences or past cases to support that it is a symptom of stress and I'm a little worried that I have any mental disorder that I haven't come across in my life. Or maybe, it's just a mood swing. I don't know! Anyhow, I couldn't remember what I had thought off much. It's just parts of them being flashback when I got nothing to do and the rest, I had forgotten them right after I thought of it. Another disease symptom huh? Anyway, because the flashbacks are so minor I didn't what is it about. It's even flashing back when I'm sleeping and make me couldn't sleep tight! This bother me the most. And worst still, I could write a proper sentence sitting in front the laptop for one hour. What happened to me? Is anyone out there experiencing something similar?

-I'm worried I don't want to be the next mental disorder patient.

-I heard my uncle-in-law wouldn't live long already as he's already in coma. Doctor said the chance for him to wake up is so minor it's almost 0%. Cousin sis flew back to Taiwan and relatives is talking about buying cemetery already. I'm sad....