Had I mentioned here that I actually cried on my first day of work? Errr, actually the first 2 days of work. It's very stupid because I never cry when I first went to kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, uni, and now when it comes to work, I actually cried. I don't know how to describe the feeling, it's not that I'm scared, or whatever you name it, but the insecurity. I have the feeling that I was thrown to a no man island, and I'm all alone by myself. Things got better day by day, especially after the huge collaboration but things went back to the starting point after that. I don't know what happened, but I just got the feeling of being thrown to the no man island, once again. From the way people talk, from the way we communicate. I did tried my best to talk to everyone when I had the chance, I've never tried so hard to talk so much to someone who I knew for just 2 months. It's not that I'll be there for long and will be working for them any longer than the 4 months contract, but the feeling of failing when you did tried your best to do something but failed. Have I not do enough? or have I did it badly? I'm curious, and I'm sad as well.
signing off,
What had I did not enough when I already tried my best? I doubt...
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